My ramblings...: November 2004

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Oblade oblada, Life goes on...

So I have been working on my social skills trying to stay out of the shell as much as possible. However, my hatred/fear of social events was re-enforced the other evening while attending a church function. Last night was our church’s Thanksgiving dinner. I probably would not have attended but, Grandma really wanted me to go, and if I wanted to eat then I had to go. Anyways, most of these people have known me since I was a small child as this is the church of my upbringing. There is a considerable number of new members and a big population that I don’t know at all. I would venture to say that there was at least 100 people in attendance last night. I can’t say that something bad happened, an awful experience just my absolute uneasiness as I sat there and tried to eat my dinner. I guess I still have considerable amount of work in the socialization department.

Ok, I am a very patient man, perhaps sometimes too patient but there is one thing that tests my patients. I decorated the exterior of my home today. That in and of itself does not bother me and sorta’ look forward to it each year. The thing that I can’t stand is when a section of lights is not working. I put up a considerable amount of the icicle lights this afternoon, some on the roof, and some in the edge of the hedges. Thank God that all of the ones on the roof worked with out a problem. These were the older lights, ones that had been used in years past, so I would have expected some problems. I did not test them before putting them up, which I will definitely do next year as I might have stapled through some of the wires. The new sections I placed in the edges of the shrubs I just cut the day before. There were 4 or 5 sections that were not functioning. I really don’t know how many lights are in each string but they seem to divide them into about 6 sections, each of which can and do function independently of the others. I had to go through each of these sections to find the malfunctioning bulb and replace them. Pull this one out, test it, put it back in, test the next one. It got really old after a while. I ended up replacing 7 light bulbs. An exuberant amount for brand new lights. I noticed as I was finishing up that there were several others out, but the strand was still functioning so I left them alone.

I responded to the email from Aereal. I keep it short, wished her well in her future and life in general. I did extend a listening ear should she need it. I am not sure if she will reply to the email, I did not ask any questions or have any statements that would require a reply, but unless she ask a question or wishes to have a reply I have no intentions of responding if she does reply. Well my power is flickering from the impeding storm so I will rap this up. I hope everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving.

- Larry

| 02:15 | |

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

What to call it.. too many topics...

I would like to begin with an apology. I have to apologize for not providing you my wonderful constituents with an update in such a long time. I have quite a bit to talk about but really am not motivated to write this evening. Where shall I begin. Well lets start with the reason I haven’t been on my computer much. Friday, after not sleeping all day long and spending the day finalizing plans for the apartment (oh, have to tell you about this too) I decided to go to a book store and browse around for a bit. Now, I am not sure what has prompted my sudden desire but I decided that I wanted a book to read. I am not sure how describe Larry walking around Borders. Needless to say I was approached on several occasions by employees trying to figure out who the hell let me in the damn store. Anyways, I bought a book, The Da Vinci Code. I had heard in the past from several sources that it was a good book, so I decided why the hell not. I am somewhat of a history buff and although it is supposable fiction it gives me something that I also have an interest in. So I have been nose deep in this book since Friday evening and haven’t have my computer on for no more than about 2 hours since then just to check emails. I am about done with the book, which is a very impressive feet for me. I am currently on page 393 of 454 pages, I should finish it tonight (assuming I actually finish this blog, knda’ tired) or first thing in the morning. I will go more into the book when I finally get it finished.
Friday, so I worked Thursday night, which means I got off work at 0700, I came home, tried to sleep and failed miserably, I finally decided that I wasn’t going to sleep when 0930 rolled around and I was still wide ass awake. So I got up, I had some running around I needed to do, I stopped at the PD and Heather decided that she was going to come with me and skip out on the rest of her day at work. So off we went to Ocala to look for furniture and get my hair cut (which we never got to). We found a living room set we could both agree on, that wasn’t an exuberant price. I found a cheap bedroom set that I could live with and a mattress set that wasn’t going to kill me but sill allow for comfortable sleep. Heather thought we should try and secure our lease that afternoon, so back to Williston we went so she could get her car, and then off to Gainesville. We did sign our lease and should be moving in the last two weeks of December. I am fairly excited at this point and can’t wait for it to get here. Although the closer it gets the closer Christmas gets as well as starting school back.
Saturday, I had to help my grandmother with this program she runs, it requires me to get up at the ass crack of dawn, but I figure all she does for me it is the least I can do. After that was all taken care of I went back to Ocala to actually purchase my mattress set. With all of that out of the way it wasn’t long before I had to go into work. I only had to work for 4 hours so that wasn’t bad. I finally got off work and Bonnie finally let me leave :-) I came home and got ready for bed. It seems that my sleep patterns are all screwed up, I am not going to have to wait until I come back to be tired.
Sunday, not much this day, I went to church with grandma, came home and read my book for most of the evening. I did receive a slightly panicked call from my cousin who was having problems with homework. I had to drop every thing I was doing (not a damn thing) and go to her house and help her.
Monday, oh that was today, I worked in my garden most of the day. I did spend some time at work this morning when I went into town to get some bolts. Other than that, I worked around the house.
Work, that is an interesting topic; our newest dispatch trainee. When we first hired her I told the supervisor that I had no intentions on training her. I used the excuse that she had been one of my substitute teachers in high school and would not feel comfortable training her. Sounded good and I guess the administration bought it as well as the supervisor. So, she agreed that she would train her, since she “.. trained me and I turned out to be a good dispatcher” she felt she could handle it. I questioned at the time how long or how effective she was going to be at teaching this women this difficult job. I shrugged it off and decided that the better figure out a way to survive with out me there anyways. Well, I as well as many of my co-workers have questioned the progress of this trainee as she has been there two months now, the typical time for training. There were many task she had never attempted or been exposed to. I was questioned weather she was just incapable of learning the material or if the supervisor was to blame for her inability to train (and lead for that matter, but I won’t get into all of that). So, the administration seeing that she has progressed very little since she started almost two months ago has made a decision to put her with me. Now, that slightly pissed me off, I really didn’t want to train her and now I am being forced to train her. At this point I really don’t give a shit, I get paid the same one way or the other and if I can get her through the training program with out washing her out or stressing her out too much then the sooner I can get out of the comm. center. I can see myself being a little stricter/harder on her than with people I have trained in the past since it seems that it will be necessary. It also aggravates me that she has not put forth the effort and made the supervisor train her. Why hasn’t she asked question and required her answer them instead of playing the games and imitating her behaviors. I am sure there will be post on this topic in the future. Perhaps I should go to the liquor store now and start stocking up.
Love life, lack there of it the title for this section. I appears that Aereal has too much going on in her life at this point. I talked to her through email (the modern day Dear John letter) and it appears that “I just need some time, if you don't mind?”. So, sa la ve (I really have no idea how to spell that, perhaps it needs some accents somewhere) don’t get me wrong I did enjoy the time I spent with her and I of coarse wish her the best of luck with everything going on in her life. I am just not going to sit around and wait for her or play the I want to see you this week but not next week. I plan on responding to her email, wishing her well, telling her that I will be an ear is she needs to vent and then not contact her again. If she wants to talk to me then so be it, she can call/write to me. I do not plan on sitting around and waiting for her to email or call me though. If I am still single (which I probably will be) then so be it, if not sorry about your luck. So, be fore warned I am on the prowl again so if any of you know any single white females please let me know.
I am going to close now, I have just realized that I am into my third page (I type my entries in Word first so that if anything happens to the internet all is not lost). I am sure you are all tired of reading this by now plus I am kinda’ in finishing my book. Until next time, hopefully it won’t be so long next time. It would appear that I found some motivation at some point through this entry.

- Larry

| 01:19 | |

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

A breaking point

I guess yesterday proved to be a breaking point for me. As many of you are my co-workers you will have knowledge of what transpired. It seems there was a major crisis with the schedule and all the crap that my supervisor is dealing with. Unfortunately, a supervisor I am rather friendly with was given the task of creating a schedule for the comm. center. After dealing with co-workers over the issue, it was determined that Larry was pissed off. I am not sure where this came from as the schedule that was made didn’t affect my days in any manner. So I called the supervisor up (the one that made the schedule) and started talking to her about the whole deal. I guess I had dealt with it enough at this point and well told her how I felt, with out holding anything back. She made the schedule with out consulting the person that was going to have to work most of the shifts. Ok, I don’t care who you are, what you do, if somebody puts you on the schedule to work what would have been your days off with out consultation you are going to be slightly pissed, well she was. Now, I really don’t know what transpired that day, what everybody had said, how much of the story I was hearing or anything to that degree at this point I really don’t care. I merely stated my view point that fewer feathers would have been ruffled if there would have been more evolvement from the people she was scheduling. We all know that hind sight is always twenty-twenty and she was trying to do her best. I don’t fault her with this; in fact she shouldn’t have had to deal with it in the first place. I could get into a lot of crap that I probably shouldn’t put in writing about my views on the comm. center and the way things are running. I am not going to do this, but know that I would keep you hear for some time if I started that rant. There was no yelling, or throwing of objects. I simply made my point. Yelling doesn’t usually accomplish much except to hurt more feelings. I hope that it doesn’t come to that as that would mean that I have reached the “boiling” point. If this does happen I would advise as many of you as possible to vacate the area as fast as humanly possible. Very few people have seen it, but when it does happen you don’t want to be close. I usually say things that I would not other wise say. If it does happen then I will probably be looking for a new job.

Anyways, life otherwise, I slept all day this afternoon. I awoke several times to the dog, phone, what ever, but ended up back in the bed until 5 o’clock rolled around when I sprang out of bed realizing that I got absolutely nothing accomplished this afternoon and the fact that I would still be awake come 3 AM. Sorta’ talked to Aereal today (email) I think the ball has finally started rolling on her moving. This is good.

I have got to figure out how to make to body stop... I need to sleep!!

- Larry

| 02:39 | |

Monday, November 15, 2004

Finally an update

Well I guess it has been a while since I updated last. I looked at the date and it was last Sunday. Sorry about that I really haven’t felt like updating and really don’t have a lot to tell you all about. I seem to have caught some cold bug this last week. I have been battling that and have felt miserable for the most part. It doesn’t help that this is my long week and I have to work an extra day this weekend. I guess it will all work out since I will be off 4 days next weekend. Anyways, not much else going on in my life at the moment. No major developments on the love life front. I thought earlier in the week that it had taken a turn for the worst. I would like to direct your attention back to that last sentence and explain what happened “I though...” that seems to get me into a lot of trouble. I wish there was some way that I could prevent or stop my self from over analyzing, reading too much into something, or just plain thinking about something too much. So far in my life I have been in several situations where if I could have stopped the logical thinking and over thinking life would have been different. This last week was just another notch in that belt. I am not going to go into all of the details at this point but it had to do with an email I got and her current ‘home life’. There are a lot of issues there that she is dealing with which she doesn’t need to have at the moment. As with most of us we all have issues, some big some small. Unfortunately I think Aereal has been dealt a double helping of nothing but big issues. Her personal issues as well as the ones she has picked up from this house are starting to wear on her. Luckily she has realized this and is trying to get out of the situation and into something that is a little more mentally stable. I am sure that I will have to battle more of these issues as the relationship progresses I just question if I want to deal with all of this, is it worth it?

- Larry

| 03:02 | |

Sunday, November 07, 2004

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I guess it has been a while since I updated... sorry about that guys. I really haven’t felt like typing anything the last couple of days. My last two nights at work almost killed me, they drug sooo much ass that it was almost unbearable. I really don’t fell like writing anything today so this will most likely be short. I guess I have caught somebody’s nasty virus and it is starting to kick my butt. It always seems to bother me the most when it is first taking hold. I could tell I wasn’t felling all that great last night because my throat was bothering me; but by the end of the evening I had enough alcohol in my system that it really didn’t matter. I did see Aereal on Wednesday other than that and my adventures yesterday not much going on. Yesterday me and Heather set off to try and get a little closer to moving out. We wanted to look for houses and try and find some furniture, specifically a couch and chair(s). We found several houses/condos most of them available now and ready to rent. The other ones we found were slightly out of our price range. After driving around what seemed like most of Gainesville we decided to start furniture shopping. We found this huge couch at Rhodes that would have been perfect. Since this was the first place we stopped we decided to look around at several other places before we bought it. By the time we finished looking and made it back to the store they had sold it. So, we officially got nothing accomplished yesterday. We did go to Wallyworld and Target and bought some accessories. We have these really cool black and whites pictures that we bought as well as a couple of floor and table lamps. After all was said and done we headed off to have a megarita at Ashley’s. We had discussed going to see a movie but the selection that is currently playing didn’t appeal to either of us. So off to the pool hall we went. Poor Heather, I kinda kicked her butt; I don’t have any idea what the score was though. I laughed since she was the one that got me hooked on playing. I still am no expert by any measure but getting better. Anyways, I am usually the DD well Heather took care of that by getting me drunk. I know I was quite intoxicated and haven’t been that drunk in some time. There are even pictures... /evil glare Bonnie. I had to go to the PD since that is where my car was and sit for over two hours before they would finally let me drive home. Almost as quickly as the feeling came over me it was gone. That was my last couple of days, I think I am going to crawl back into bed now, I really hate being sick!!

- Larry

| 15:04 | |

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Awake

Ok... I have decided that my current work schedule has totally screwed up my normal sleeping schedule. Most of you are sound asleep while very few of us are conscious. I have been trying to sleep... it hasn’t worked!!! I have been lying in my bed tossing and turning for he last hour and I am still wide ******* awake. Today was Election Day, I hope all of you got out and made you voices heard no matter who you voted for. I have been watching the news while they try and figure out who has won. It is almost 4 o’clock now... and they still have no definitive answer. I guess when you all are reading this the decision will have at least been made (pending a lawsuit, at least it won’t be FL this time)... I will hopefully be asleep by then. I talked to Aereal tonight; I am off tomorrow and was trying to figure out what to do tomorrow with her. I was unable to come up a single solitary good idea. It has to be something that requires little planning since well it is in a couple of hours. If anyone has any suggestions I would greatly appreciate it. I think I am going to try and lie back down and see if I can sleep.

- Larry

| 03:58 | |

Monday, November 01, 2004

Monday

So it’s Monday, at least for a little while longer. Not much going on in my life at the moment. No new developments or changes with me and Aereal. I talked to her briefly Friday night and again this evening. I would love to take her on a kayaking trip before it gets too cold to go out. There is just considerable planning involved in making that happen. Not only do I have to figure out where we are going, which I really haven’t been to anything local. Then I also have to figure out how to get at least her a boat and then transportation for mine. Hay Heather, want to do a double date kayak trip… that adds another degree of difficulty. Along those lines I was surfing the net this weekend for Florida kayaking and came across a couple of books that I ordered. They will give me a better idea of good spots and what to expect when I get there. I thought about the Silver River paddling up to the spring and around. The current is not supposed to be very bad on the Silver River so beginners shouldn’t have a problem. I do know that with all the extra water from the hurricanes that all of the currents have sped up a little bit. Santa Fe river is also supposed to be nice, but the current is considerably stronger… thus it would be a down stream trip only… enters another problem, transportation from take out location. Anyways, I guess if I am going to do this I better get the ball rolling. I have a problem reading her at times, but I guess she is female so it is suppose to be that way. I think she likes me but doesn’t want to. If that makes sense.

I really don’t feel like typing so I am going to call it a night, oh, I did update my profile picture, take a look.

- Larry

| 22:58 | |

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